My Numerical Status [1]

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As of 3:41 am. Thursday 29th January, 2009:

  • savings – 2979.93 😐
  • years on earth – 23.7 🙂
  • my stupid counter – 1297 😐
  • away from home since – 1.5 😦

Alhamdolillah, no matter whatsoever the numbers are, there is no life except the life of the hereafter! Praise be to ALLAH, THE ALL-COMPASSIONATE, ALL-MERCIFUL..


A father’s appreciation.

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There is nothing more satisfactory for a son when his father says, “Son, I am content with you.”
Now the thing is that my mom conveys this daily.. son i love you.. you are the best of all.. and it goes on 😀

But a father is a man, somewhat more straightforward.. so it’s more like “If I say it, I mean it.”
He made my day.

Alhamdolillah. I am grateful to Allah SWT for blessing me with the opportunity to pray for my parents!!

Allah SWT’s Plans!


How many times have we lost trust and hope in Allah SWT and His long term plan about ourselves? How many times in one single day do we say or merely think about something to be unachievable.. a wasted struggle? I am sure most of us have been through these times when we only consider logical self-made plans as part of our future. This is because our natural instincts, to a greater extent, restrict our ability to plan in accordance to unseen and unimaginable opportunities.

Here is my take on it: We all forget that Allah SWT is the best planner of all. I am not saying that we forget this to be a fact, but, we forget that this should be a part of our plans!

Yes.. I realized that the bigger share of our plans should be to ensure that we depend on Allah’s plans!

Let me clarify my ambiguous suggestions with these verses from Surah Al-Talaq:

Thus when they fulfil their term appointed, either take them back on equitable terms or part with them on equitable terms; and take for witness two persons from among you, endued with justice, and establish the evidence (as) before Allah. Such is the admonition given to him who believes in Allah and the Last Day. And for those who fear Allah, He (ever) prepares a way out (2) And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if anyone puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is (Allah) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish His purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. (3)

Now, here is the thing: 65.3% of my life’s proceedings are not dependent on anything that I’ve control of..

I am looking for a job but most of them are not interested in *aliens* (for those who know this.. yeh laugh!)

I am seriously planning to be a good funny sheikh (impressed by Imam Siraj Wahaj).. yes, the next step in Islam, Inshallah.

I am looking for an *exceptional* muslim entity because:

  1. I’ll marry her..
  2. that’s the best way to get rid of the haunting fitna of summer-time girls in usa esp for brothers :p
  3. It’s about time!


  1. sheikhs like Yasir Birjas freak me out!! See this: Marriage Crisis in USA; may God be pleased with him 🙂
  2. being confused, unconfident and a shy guy to a certain extent.. this *exceptional* criteria is, like I said, seemingly unachievable if you’re not exceptionally relying on Allah’s plans!

Now, when I think of all this and then the other 100 things going on in my life, I get nightmares (mostly after fajr, because that’s when shaiytan controls your dreams).

So what do I do? I trust on Allah’s plans! .. believe me it’s the toughest job to do so.. because then a huge chunk of your americanized friends (even those not living in America) would say that you don’t want to put your efforts in it.. but I know for sure that this is the most painstaking struggle, my struggle within!

I observed one thing recently. For those of the weak souls out there like me, you need to reinforce your belief by constantly looking for stories of people and listening to optimistic sheikhs, it helps unlike anything! I do it on almost daily basis, and it helps me to get a smile of satisfaction on my face out of nowhere 🙂

Here is the most recent one I came across: Rachel Noor – The Reversion Story

Enough talking 🙂

Fee aman Allah. Ws.

Physical Description of Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) by Umm Ma’bad


This hadith is considered to be one of the best and most complete physical descriptions of Prophet Muhammad PBUH. I learned that it’s almost impossible to translate the beautiful words into english and here, I’ve tried to collect a few english versions.

When the Prophet Muhammad (sallallahu alaihi wasallam) emigrated from Makkah to Madînah, he passed by the tent of Umm Ma`bad. She witnessed some of his miracles, then swore fealty to him in Islam before he departed. When her husband came back, he was surprised to find with her a quantity of milk. He asked her: “Where you have got this from, O Umm Ma`bad, while our sheep is alone and untouched and we have no milk cow in our home?” She said: “Nay, but by Allah, a blessed man passed by our way and did so and so.” He said: “Describe him to me, O Umm Ma`bad.”


She said:
“I saw a man who is handsome, of glowing countenance, and of good proportions, with neither a large stomach nor a small head. He is smart of appearance, with balanced features, deep black eyes, and long eyelashes. His voice is not coarse. He has a long neck, a full rounded beard, and thick eyebrows that meet each other. When he is silent, he is stately and composed, and when he speaks, his appearance is impressive.

“He is the most beautiful and striking man from a distance and the best and most beautiful from close up. He is well spoken, clear in what he says, saying neither too much nor too little, his words flowing forth like a perfect string of pearls.

“He is neither too tall nor overly short, a stately man in the company of two other stately men (one of them was Abu Bakr RA), and he is the most prominent among them and the most well-respected.

“He has companions who surround him. If he speaks, they listen to him, and if he commands, they hasten to fulfill his command. He is well served and attended, though he is neither stern nor argumentative.”


Excerpt from “Biographies of the Prophet’s Companions and their Successors” By Muḥammad ibn Jarīr Ṭabarī, Ella Landau-Tasseron


“I saw a man, pure and clean, with a handsome face and a fine figure. He was not marred by a skinny body, nor was he overly small in the head and neck. He was graceful and elegant, with intensely black eyes and thick eyelashes. There was a huskiness in his voice, and his neck was long. His beard was thick, and his eyebrows were finely arched and joined together. When silent, he was grave and dignified, and when he spoke, glory rose up and overcame him. He was from afar the most beautiful of men and the most glorious, and close up he was the sweetest and the loveliest. He was sweet of speech and articulate, but not petty or trifling. His speech was a string of cascading pearls, measured so that none despaired of its length.”

This hadîth is related by al-Hâkim in al-Mustadrak (3/9-10), al-Tabarânî in al-Mu`jam al-Kabîr (3605), Abû Nu`aym in Dalâ’il al-Nubuwwah (282-278), and al-Lâlikâ’î in I`tiqâd Ahl al-Sunnah (1434-1437).

my beginning of the retake.

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Sometimes, you really desire to open up yourself and let go that miserable feel that haunts you. You try your best to find a trusted human being around you and it takes you mere minutes to say it all.. if you find someone. Nevertheless, [unfortunately] a very few of us have deciphered the code to communicate with Allah, the All-Knower and feel the intensity of this rendezvous at its best while in sujoods (prostrations).

I take pride for being one from the later group! It’s not a clear distinction because I too have my friends who have helped me along by merely listening to my crap stories and perspectives. But still, I know that Allah, the Exalted  knows more about me than I myself; I know that He listens to every word and He can make the best sense out of my conflicting prayers; and, I know that He owns the resolutions and that His mercy is boundless.

Where am I taking you with this? Nothing big – but just a personal account of what it takes to be patient, hopeful, submissive, humble, and funny 🙂

I was a muslim, I am a better muslim now, and I am striving to be a perfect muslim.

I am 23, studying computer science in USA, and I am (not actively) looking for the best of the best commodity of this world – a pious wife. I am a perfectionist, optimistically stubborn, definite down to earth, and struggling entity (from ER Diagrams). I learn and I move on. I aim big, and I defend it. I follow the Sunni Madhab and I respect and try to practice all four fiqhs.

Now the *most important* part – I have no intentions of marketing myself over this blog. As I said, I’ll be myself.. I’ll open up my thoughts crystal clear.. and I would not possibly reveal a lot about my whereabouts. I just intend to learn by perhaps whatever I am being suggested by my own writings.. let’s say retrospection through words. I hope it’s not a stupid idea.. :>

Inshallah, I will be much happier if someone would be able to learn anything from my unorganized and funny notes :>

Jazakallah Khair. Asalamalaikum.